May 27, 2013
Blogging then and now.
I started blogging in 2008. I liked to write but was a little terrified of making my words public. Still, I had stumbled across a kind of community in a few blogs I was reading, and I appreciated the online Christian fellowship, the sharing of words and ideas and meeting like-minded individuals that I never would have met otherwise. So without really knowing what I was doing I opened a blogger account and away I went, one tentative post at a time.
There have been seasons where I've felt like I had a lot to say as well as times that I had no words to share here and considered moving on but I kept coming back, I'm still here. Writing publicly in this format has it's pros and cons but I feel the good outweighs the bad.
Still, I find myself surveying the blogging landscape and taking note of something.
It seems like the days of blogging that were about the simple joys of writing and interacting with others are fading fast. It's like the standard keeps getting raised higher and higher - like keeping a blog is not worthwhile unless you have hundreds (or thousands) of subscribers and are making money off of it.
Sometimes I will click through to a new blog and more times than not I find myself on a professionally designed site authored by an extremely creative woman with an amazing home, stunning photography skills, and of course an online shop where you can purchase her prints, jewelery, or other handcrafted items.
Some blogs that used to hold my interest through good, honest writing now seem to be made up of too many photos and a string of advertisements.
Okay, I have to say that there is nothing wrong with having a ton of followers or making money from blogging, obviously. There are many talented women out there who should be doing exactly what they're doing.
The point I want to make is that in this online sea of growing talent I have to be careful not to let comparison or jealousy take over.
Sometimes I look at others and what they're doing and want to compete, to have the same success. Or I begin to question whether I should even blog because I can't write or take pictures like so-and-so or I don't have a huge following and I'm not always consistent and I don't have a way of earning income from this and what am I even writing about on here? Am I just wasting my time?
But then I step back and remember why I do this, and it does hold value for me.
I don't want to compare. I don't want to sound or look like someone else. I just want to do what I've always done, writing parts of my life out: what the Lord is teaching me, the joys and the struggles. To take time for this creative task, to enjoy the simple beauty of everyday things through words and pictures. To be thankful, to clear my mind, to remember, to take notice. Recording life lessons and truths that hopefully will encourage you at times but mostly just to preach them to myself (I need this).
And of course, I am thankful for each of you who read my posts and leave comments whether I know you in real life or just the online world - you make this even more fun!
* I should probably point out that I am not referring to any of the blogs I follow in my sidebar and I don't tend to leave comments on the types of sites I mentioned so please don't be offended by thinking you are included in my criticisms! I meant for this post to be primarily about my heart issues with blogging and comparison!