Jan 19, 2013
Here we are already, with a two month old boy!
I loved Joshua from the start but these days I am surprised at how much more I love him. My heart squeezes every time I look at this kid.
Perhaps part of it is the fog clearing...getting a little more sleep and feeling more like myself. Our days are more predictable and I'm able to enjoy him in a different way - it's amazing how much easier things are when you're not completely exhausted and sore and trying to figure things out for the first time.
I can't wait until we can play more together, interact in new ways...but I don't want to rush things. I think this is a sweet stage because there is so much change coming. I look at his little face watching us, watching the world around him. Trying to figure things out. So much to learn and as parents, we get a front row seat to the process, a direct role in teaching and helping and loving. Parenthood is such a gift.
So, a few notes for future remembrance!
Nighttime sleep is still pretty unpredictable - we can usually count on 3-4 hours when he first goes down for the night but after he's up again for a feeding it all depends - he might sleep for another 3 or it might only be an hour and half before he's up. He did tease us with a five hour stretch a couple of nights but he's dropped that. My latest problem is that after being up and settling him again I often can't fall back to sleep for an hour or sometimes more. It's frustrating trying so hard to get back to sleep knowing he could wake up again any time! Looking forward to some longer stretches of sleep as he matures.
He doesn't like to nap easily - he won't settle by himself at all and these days the only thing that seems to work is letting him fall asleep in our arms (a long process) or swinging him in his car seat. We do have a swing but it doesn't work like the car seat does for him, crazy little man. I want to eventually try to get him on a schedule but I feel like he's not quite ready - I'm not against a little crying it out but at this point I think he's a bit young. We did try to let him cry and settle on his own a few times but he just doesn't tire and I'm not comfortable letting him cry for long stretches of time. I know the methods we're using are probably setting us up for a hard time in the future but I'm hoping it will be a bit easier to get him on a schedule when he's closer to three months? Just a thought.
Playtime: he smiles easily (as long as he's in a good mood!) and loves bright pictures in his books and toys that we can shake and make noise for him. He can be quite vocal but no real giggles yet. Can't wait for those. I'm trying to be good about making sure he gets a little tummy time every day but as any parent knows, that can be a challenge. I'm thinking it will be more enjoyable for him as he gets stronger and can lean on his arms or keep his head up more easily.
And this guy continues to be a frequent nurser - if he's up then he usually wants to eat every two, two and a half hours or three at the maximum. So it often feels like the majority of my day is spent breast feeding but he obviously needs it. At his last appointment he was ten pounds, nine ounces which was up two pounds since birth but he's dropped on the charts quite a bit so we want to keep him gaining!
I think that sums up where we're at these days.